June 30, 2012

I am not afraid

I realize that I'm not perfect, and that we all fall short, including me. I realize that. I do not want to be stiff-necked or proud, but I am not afraid of the oppression I see coming. Not for myself. I only feel a heavy burden in my heart for the people around me, for my people as a whole, willing them to realize, understand, and repent before the time for repentance is past. I think that my mother tends to believe this is prideful of me, not to be concerned. Not like that. Or maybe it's because my concern is for others rather than focusing mostly on myself. Not like that. Maybe that's just the difference in our personalities, our way of dealing with things. Maybe it's her being a mother hen, trying to protect me. Maybe it is wisdom, maybe I am proud. I don't know.

I know that it's hard. I know that it's dangerous. I know that I have to be sure of what I believe. I know it takes strength, some of my own, much more of YHWH's. I do realize that it is not my strength that will see me through. It is only faith and obedience to YHWH that will keep me on the right path. Sometimes, I wonder if I've failed in this. I know that I will be tested, just like everybody else. Yet, with all of the terrible things that the Scriptures prophecy for the latter days, with all of the doom and gloom that is foretold by men, with all of the things I'm sure we'll have to go through, I am not afraid. I am not afraid. You don't have to be.

If YHWH is on our side, if YHWH is with us, then who can be against us? Yes, we will be judged for our transgressions, but we don't have to fear it. Yes, we will be punished, individually, and collectively, but YHWH promises not to completely destroy those who put their trust in Him. So choose to trust in Him. It's a daily choice. I don't always choose well, I'm human. I admit that. But I choose the red pill, and refuse to turn back. In the end it's that simple. Not easy, just simple. Mom has a plaque over one of our sinks that says "Faith makes things possible, not easy." So make sure your heart is right with YHWH, have faith in Him, and nothing will be impossible for you to endure, even death. Maybe that is idealistic, maybe even utopian. But my Bible says it's true. My Bible says it's possible. And I believe it. And I'm not afraid.

This is what YHWH laid on my heart this morning, while meditating in His Word. 
And I prayed to my Elohim, and made confession, and said, "O great and awesome guarding the covenant and the kindness to those who love Him, and to those who guard His commands. "We have sinned and did crookedness, and did wrong and rebelled, to turn aside from Your commands and from Your right-rulings. "And we have not listened to Your servants the prophets, who spoke in Your Name to our sovereigns, our heads, and our fathers, and to all the people of the land. "O to You is the righteousness, and to us the shame of face, as it is this day – to the men of Yehudah to the inhabitants of Yerushalayim and all Yisra’those near and those far off in all the lands to which You have driven them, because of their trespass which they have trespassed against You. "O Master, to us is the shame of face, to our sovereigns, to our heads, and to our fathers, because we have sinned against You. "To our Elohim are the compassions and forgivenesses, for we have rebelled against Him. "And we have not obeyed the voice of our Elohim, to walk in His Torot, which He set before us through His servants the prophets. "And all Yisra’el have transgressed Your Torah, and turned aside, so as not to obey Your voice. So the curse and the oath written in the Torah of Mosheh the servant of Elohim have been poured out on us, for we have sinned against Him. "And He has confirmed His words, which He spoke against us and against our rulers who judged us, by bringing upon us great evil. For under all the heavens there has not been done like what was done to Yerushalayim. "As it is written in the Torah of Mosheh, all this evil has come upon us, and we have not entreated the face of our Elohim, to turn back from our crookednesses, and to study Your truth. "Hence has watched over the evil and has brought it upon us. For our Elohim is righteous in all the works which He has done, but we have not obeyed His voice. "And now, O our Elohim, who brought Your people out of the land of Mitsrayim with a strong hand, and made Yourself a Name, as it is this day – we have sinned, we have done wrong! "O according to all Your righteousness, I pray, let Your displeasure and Your wrath be turned away from Your city Yerushalayim, Your set-apart mountain. For, because of our sins, and because of the crookednesses of our fathers, Yerushalayim and Your people have become a reproach to all those around us. "And now, our Elohim, hear the prayer of Your servant, and his supplications, and for the sake of cause Your face to shine on Your set-apart place, which is laid waste. "O my Elohim, incline Your ear and hear. Open Your eyes and see our wastes, and the city which is called by Your Name. For we do not present our supplications before You because of our righteous deeds, but because of Your great compassions. "O hear! O forgive! O listen and act! Do not delay for Your own sake, my Elohim, for Your city and Your people are called by Your Name."  (Dan 9:4-19)
"Take away all crookedness, and accept what is good, and we render the bulls of our lips." (Hos 14:2)


"Ephrayim is feeding on wind, and pursuing an east wind. All the day he increases falsehood and ruin. And they make a covenant with Ashshur, and oil is sent to Mitsrayim." (Hos 12:1)"Ephrayim mixes himself among the peoples, Ephrayim has become a cake unturned. Strangers have devoured his strength, but he does not know it. Grey hairs are also sprinkled on him, and he does not know it. And the Excellency of Yisra’el did witness to his face, but they did not return to their Elohim, nor did they seek Him for all this... Woe to them, for they have strayed from Me! Destruction to them, because they have transgressed against Me! And I Myself have ransomed them, yet they have spoken falsehoods against Me, and did not cry out to Me with their heart when they wailed upon their beds. For grain and new wine they assemble themselves; they turn away from Me. And I instructed, I strengthened their arms, but they plot evil against Me. They return, but not to the Most High. They have been like a slack bow. Their rulers fall by the sword for the cursings of their tongue. This is their scorn in the land of Mitsrayim." (Hos 7:8-10, 13-16)

"Yisra’el has been swallowed up. They have now become among the nations as a vessel in which is no pleasure. For they themselves have gone up to Ashshur. A wild donkey alone by itself is Ephrayim, they have hired lovers. Also, although they sold themselves among the nations, this time I shall gather them, when they have suffered for a while from the burden of a sovereign, of rulers."  (Hos 8:8-10)

"For many days the children of Yisra’el are to remain without sovereign and without prince, and without slaughtering, and without pillar, and without shoulder garment or house idols. Afterward the children of Yisra’el shall return, and seek their Elohim, and Dawid their sovereign, and fear YHWH and His goodness, in the latter days." (Hos 3:4-5)

"You have destroyed yourself, O Yisra’el but your help is in Me." (Hos 13:9)
"O Yisra’el return to your Elohim, for you have stumbled by your crookedness." (Hos 14:1)

Shabbat Shalom.

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